michael jackson ... the king

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Haiz....

I dunno why this few days.. or maybe this few weeks i cant sleep well... before i fell a sleep.. i'll always think of my grandma ( she juz passed away ).. i always think of the past.. when i was small i didnt really appreciate her.when i was young and small.. my grandma always use hainanese and talk to me which i dont understand last time..and u noe lar grandmothers talk veri loud wan.. so i always tot she is always scolding me.. last time my grandma also loves to take my small tiny hand and put beside her hand and diffrenciate.. and always say my hand smooth and soft...haha..and this few years when we go back and visit her.. my parents will always call me to kiss my grandma on her chick before we go back to kl.. but when i kissed her i nvr kiss wif my heart but those kind like faster kiss then can go back.. but now i realize i was wrong.. i want to kiss her as many times as i wan..but a week before she passed away my family went back to visit her.. she doesnt look very good but ok la... with my mom there pujuking her.. my grandma finally eat sumthing.. and my dad bought durian for my grandma which is my grandma's favourite and my dislike.. but tat time i tahan the smell la.. since grandma wants to eat..my grandma was enjoying the durian...haha... my dad was like the son seeing the mother finally eating and enjoying the food.. veri cute.. haiz... then on tuesday.. i went to school like normal.. my parents and other aunties n uncles went back becoz my aunt in kampung said my grandma's condition wasnt very well... my parents and other uncles and aunties didnt reali rush back becoz they tot like old people's sickness.. complain there and here... but when my parents on the way back.. they recieve my aunt call and said my grandma passed away.. haiz.... everything cant be controlled.. every nite before i sleep i also always think wat will happen in the future.. one day my parents is goin to leave me nxt time.. and me n my parents age gap is very far becoz my mom born me late.. then i always count.. how old muz i get married.. how old muz i give birth to babies.. so tat my parents got grandchildren... untill i get tired of thinking then i'll fall a sleep...
haiz.. i hope i wont think alot

SO NOW I LEARN somethin. we must appreciate eveything we got..dun regret after it is gone...<3>

Jamie @ 21:23